01.05.2010

It’s so hard to believe that Jaxson will soon be here. I have been “nesting” like crazy. I’m sure he doesn’t care if Mommy & Daddy’s closets are cleaned out or if the floors are spotless or if his room is in perfect order. It seems like there is so much to get ready in such a short period of time and not knowing when we will make the mad dash to the hospital makes it even harder to get things ready. Between getting things organized at home and at work, I’m usually frazzled. I’m going to work on getting my bag packed this week sometime and I’m going to get the camera/video camera charged and ready to make those first shots! I get nervous about the labor & delivery sometimes but most times it’s out of my mind because of everything else going on. I realize it’s going to be painful (I’ve been told MANY times by numerous people) but that’s just the beginning of an amazing journey ahead. I’ve never had any type of surgery/hospital stay so I’m sure it won’t be the most pleasant experience but just knowing I am that much closer to seeing baby boy will make things bearable. No turning back now! Jaxson doesn’t kick as much as he used to he just enjoys rolling around now. I can tell that he’s spread from one side to the other…gotta love the “love handles” that he’s giving me :) I’m still in my routine of drinking a glass of milk before bed every night that usually wakes him up. I’ve been sleeping better than normal which is a little shocking. I don’t know if it’s because I am so worn out or if I’ve finally adjusted to sleeping on my side. I am so anxious for him to be here but I’m going to miss having him all to myself and feeling him roll around or have the hiccups. I don’t think you ever truly understand the love a parent has for his/her child until you are in that role. It’s amazing how fast your priorities can change. I will still enjoy shopping I’m sure but fashion/shoes/trendy clothes all of a sudden don’t impress me that much anymore. In the past, I would beg/bargain with Emmett for a $100 pair of heels but now I’m so excited about my North Face fleece pants & jacket that I can’t hardly stand it! I can’t wait to wear them home from the hospital and cuddle up with my baby boy for the 6-8 weeks after he’s born! Now I beg/bargain with Emmett to let me stay home instead of returning to work…hahaha…I would be willing to sacrifice the expensive shoes any day for that! I know that Emmett is just as excited about Jaxson’s arrival as he loves to talk to him and asks daily how his baby boy is doing. He’s going to be a wonderful Daddy and Jaxson is going to have him wrapped around his little finger from day one.

If it continues to stay as cold as it’s been, I’m just going to hibernate in the house until February. There are benefits to being pregnant in the winter time (less swelling due to heat) but no one warns you that you will need a parka! I thought I would be okay because one of my ski jackets still zips but I didn’t expect it to stay below 20 degrees for so long! We have 2 baby showers this weekend, one in Paris and the other in Bolivar. I am so excited to see everyone and hope the roads are clear. Hopkinsville is expected to get 3-4 inches of snow from Wednesday night to Thursday afternoon with high temperatures of 12 degrees; yes that’s the high, and even colder than that for Friday night. In the 2 years we’ve lived in our house, it hasn’t been this cold for this long. This we know for a fact, because the emergency heat for the upstairs has been unknowingly unplugged since it was installed in October 2007. We just realized it this past weekend  :)

We have our first Lamaze class tonight. I can’t say that I’m excited about it but I’m not dreading it either. I just hope they don’t try to scare us to death because quite frankly I’m long past that. I’m just counting the days and hoping they will slow down & speed up all at the same time…